By Marni Montanez
1 God is our refuge and strength, A very present help in trouble.
I was struggling with what verse to send out today and in my struggle this verse came to mind. Even in what seems like insignificant or unimportant, to God, everything about us and what's important to us matters to Him.
It may not always feel that way. There have been so many times in my life I screamed out at heaven because I was in such turmoil and God who is all powerful and all knowing, seemed distant and silent. These were the times I pressed in even harder because of fear or desperation.
When I think of the word refuge......I feel it is a word that describes a covering; a protection from the storm that is raging outside. In these moments when I need God as my refuge you can bet, it's because I feel emotionally spent and need to hide inside His tender care.............. "A very present help in trouble" I know that in my trouble, though it may not "feel" like it, He is standing before me, watching and waiting as I make my way in His strength through the dark nights of my soul. I remember countless times saying to God "where are you?"
It wasn't that I didn't have faith, it was that my emotions needed to feel the security of His presence, when that didn't happen I felt forsaken and left on the side of the road. I believed for a long time that God was punishing me. But through time I have learned that in my harshest moments when the wind of trouble came blowing against me, God was and will always be right there. These are the seasons when my spiritual and emotional muscles are being challenged and I become stronger. This strength causes me to push ahead to even higher ground. it is there on the next plateau where God meets me with more intensity and clearer understanding of my purpose.
This is one of my favorite sayings.
To courageously straighten again after our hearts have been bowed by defeat, disappointment and suffering, is the supreme test of character.