Submitted by: Wyandotte Animal Group <[email protected]>
Posted 20 May 1999
Everyone in the apartment complex I lived in knew who Ugly was. Ugly was the
resident tomcat. Ugly loved three things in this world: fighting, eating
garbage, and shall we say, love. The combination of these things combined
with a life spent outside had their effect on Ugly. To start with, he had
only one eye, and where the other should have been was a gaping hole. He was
also missing his ear on the same side, his left foot has appeared to
have been badly broken at one time, and had healed at an unnatural
angle, making him look like he was always turning the corner. His tail
has long been lost, leaving only the smallest stub, which he would
constantly jerk and twitch. Ugly would have been a dark gray
tabby striped-type, except for the sores covering his head, neck, even his
shoulders with thick, yellowing scabs. Every time someone saw
Ugly there was the same reaction. "That's one UGLY cat!!" All the children
were warned not to touch him, the adults threw rocks at him, hosed him down,
squirted him when he tried to come in their homes, or shut his paws in the
door when he would not leave. Ugly always had the same reaction. If you
turned the hose on him, he would stand there, getting soaked until you gave
up and quit. If you threw things at him, he would curl his lanky body
around feet in forgiveness. Whenever he spied children, he would
come running meowing frantically and bump his head against their hands,
begging for their love. If you ever picked him up he would immediately begin
suckling on your shirt, earrings, whatever he could find.
One day Ugly shared his love with the neighbors huskies. They did not
respond kindly, and Ugly was badly mauled. From my apartment I
could hear his screams, and I tried to rush to his aid. By the time I got to
where he was laying, it was apparent Ugly's sad life was almost at an
end. Ugly lay in a wet circle, his back legs and lower back twisted
grossly out of shape, a gaping tear in the white strip of fur that ran down
his front. As I picked him up and tried to carry him home I could hear
him wheezing and gasping, and could feel him struggling. I must be hurting
him terribly I thought. Then I felt a familiar tugging, sucking sensation on
my ear-Ugly, in so much pain, suffering and obviously dying was trying
to suckle my ear. I pulled him closer to me, and he bumped the palm of
my hand with his head, then he turned his one golden eye towards me, and I
could hear the distinct sound of purring. Even in the greatest pain, that
ugly battled-scarred cat was asking only for a little affection, perhaps
some compassion.
At that moment I thought Ugly was the most beautiful, loving creature I had
ever seen. Never once did he try to bite or scratch me, or even try to get
away from me, or struggle in any way. Ugly just looked up at me completely
trusting in me to relieve his pain. Ugly died in my arms before
I could get inside, but I sat and held him for a long time afterwards,
thinking about how one scarred, deformed little stray could so alter my
opinion about what it means to have true pureness of spirit, to love
so totally and truly. Ugly taught me more about giving and compassion
than a thousand books, lectures, or talk show specials ever could, and for
that I will always be thankful. He had been scarred on the outside,
but I was scarred on the inside, and it was time for me to move on and learn
to love truly and deeply. To give my total to those I cared for.
Many people want to be richer, more successful, well liked, beautiful, but
for me, I will always try to be Ugly.
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