I fell in love with a beautiful little teddy bear of a
puppy the instant I set eyes on her and she let me know that the
feelings were mutual. I knew nothing about puppies, the Keeshond breed
or puppy mills. I only knew I had to have this adorable little bundle.
She became the joy of my life and a delight to my soul
and somehow we both survived her puppy hood. We were inseparable and the
bond between us deepened each day. I soon learned that a Keeshond is a
thinking being with a keen sense of humor and fair play.
The first time I tossed a ball for her to chase she ran
after it and brought it back to me, also the second time. But the third
time she didn't give me the ball, she just looked me in the eye, gave
her head a toss throwing the ball across the yard then looked at me
expectantly. I understood the message and dutifully ran, laughing all
the way across the yard to retrieve the ball. I guess that was my first
"obedience lesson" in taking turns and fair play. I must have passed the
test because I got a great big laughing Keesie grin and some tender
licks as my reward. I would play little jokes on her and she would play
little jokes on me, often amazing me with the uniqueness of the things
she would think up. She never ceased to amaze me and I could never look
at her without thinking, how beautiful and intelligent she was. The very
sight of her lifted my spirits and inspired me. We ate together and
slept together, when I showered she would come nosing in through the
curtain and join me, when I soaked in a tub full of bubbles she couldn't
resist jumping in. When we hiked through the woods and streams together
she would never let me out of her sight. At the ocean we would chase
seagulls and splash in the water together. She was always happy to help
me dig holes in the garden and I would help her chase lizards and other
critters
and dig in the gopher holes. We had such wonderfully happy times
together and I loved her with all my heart and soul.
Little did I know she was a ticking time bomb of sorrow,
pain and anguish for the both of us, through no fault of her own or
mine. She had been born to suffer and bring grief by an insensitive,
greedy puppy miller whose only concern was mass producing puppies for
profit. These degenerates don't care if they reproduce puppies with
genetic disorders, heart and immune system disorders, allergy and skin
problems or any other inherited defect. They don't care about the future
health of the puppies or the devastation they will cause in the lives of
the people who love them. They overbreed indiscriminately, as often as
they can with as little cash output as possible for food and housing, in
unimaginable filthy conditions and without veterinary care or loving
attention.
My little partner began with allergies, then skin
problems, heart problems followed. I sold my antique bellows organ to
pay the vet bill and buy her prescriptions. There were times she would
seem to get better, then she would get worse and I would have to lift
her up and carry her outside to go for a ride or make a puddle. Her
liver and kidneys began to function poorly, she retained water and
couldn't make a puddle. Back to the vet, more tests, more medication. I
sold my piano to pay for it all, to buy her a little more time. I called
university research centers and talked to some very kindly researchers
who shared any new information they had with me on her problems and I
tried it all. It was hell, she was suffering and I was doing all that I
could find out to do and it wasn't enough. I sold my wedding rings to
pay the vet and prescriptions and buy a special concentrated diet that I
had to put down her throat with a syringe when she stopped eating. After
three years of nursing and caring for her, of hoping and praying for a
miracle I finally realized it was time, time to make "that terrible
decision." She couldn't eat or drink, she couldn't walk, run or play.
She couldn't do any of the fun things she so dearly loved to do, she was
suffering and she had lost her wonderful laughing Keesie grin. I was
physically, emotionally and financially exhausted.
With my heart breaking, sobbing uncontrollably, I called
the vet and made the appointment for three days later in the afternoon
just before closing. For the next three days I would carry her out to
the truck and lay her on a cushion where she could see out of the
window. I would drive up the dirt roads through the woods at 5 miles per
hour all day, to all the places where we had shared so many happy hours
together. She rested her chin on the open window sill and watched
intently as we drove. She had always enjoyed riding along like this,
woofing at deer and squirrels when we saw them. She seemed to enjoy the
scenery now but only pricked up her ears at the sight of a squirrel with
no woofing request to stop and let her chase it up a tree.
On the last day, my face streaming with tears, I told
her about my own near death experience, how beautiful and wonderful it
was on the other side where she would be a puppy again without any pain
or suffering. When we arrived at the veterinary office I apologized for
my selfishness in not letting her go sooner asked her to forgive me and
wait for me on the other side. She looked at me with the most intense
look of understanding, gave me a tender lick and laid her face in my
hand.
Tell me puppy millers, was your $25 profit worth it?
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