Thank you for your reply.
From what you describe, you are living and ministering in the concessions of God in this corrupt world, rather than in the creation and heavenly will of God, in which He desires us to to live.
Please take a look at the article Living in the Will Rather than the Concessions of God in the Bible section of our web site:
We would very much like your opinion.
In the Love of the Lord,
Frank and Mary